Final Thoughts for Today

Hey world, I am back for some last thoughts for today, I have no idea how long (or short) this will be, because I have nothing so far planned, I will just write what I am thinking. Hopefully this will make sense. Ok, So first off, I did it despite the rain. By it I mean I took my daily pictures, and some of them turned out fairly well in my opinion. I really need to learn some technical things, so I can handle my camera better, but otherwise I am having a good time. My daily picture turned into about seven that I kept, however a few of them are noisy from the fact that lighting conditions were not the best. I was incredibly happy when I found the rain stopped and I immediately got in my car with my camera and went for a drive, hoping to find something worth photographing. I found a parking lot, that is almost always deserted and pulled over and started taking pictures. This turned into some really good shots. Other than that, if you would like to see them check out the April 2nd shots at Dusty Depictions.

As far as more important things go, bare with me while I do some digging. There hasn't been much emotionally strenuous today for me, however on the good side, I talked to Daf on the phone today. That always makes me so happy, her voice lights up my day. It was funny because I found myself get giddy and silly almost instantaneously, and it felt good. I feel so alive when I am talking to her, I sometimes wish I knew the words to tell her how I feel, but nothing seems adequate, at least in my eyes everything falls short of the full meaning. She just brings such joy to me, and makes my soul feel such elation, that AHH!!!! I don't know, it is just amazing.

Other aspects of my life are fairly neutral, I have tests next week, so this weekend will be dedicated to studying. A bonus is that tomorrow, there shouldn't be rain, maybe I can go hiking then. Anyway, I am still working on my goals, and learning how to be less shy. In fact, pulling my car over and taking pictures, despite the weird looks was a nice step for me. However, I got discouraged that I even noticed the weird looks, because I want to be to the point where I don't notice how others see me at all. On the upside, I think I care less than most people, but I still am working on it. It is a process, but at least I am trying. Another thing this allowed me to do was to practice forgiving myself. Instead of letting myself get discouraged, I recognized what I was doing, and stopped it from getting to me. I give myself that.

Anyway, that was my day, I probably am done for tonight so Goodnight World! Sweet Dreams.