Monday, May 31, 2010
Rust and Love
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Tears Fall
Today in Retrospect
Today was an average day in almost every way... I went to school, went to work, came home. And it made me consider... Why do people even bother with average days? I have a goal, that will always be a struggle, and that is to have no more average days. Why, you may ask? And it...
This blog was in the works since last Friday all of 8 days ago. I lost my direction when Finals showed up. It has been so long since I had taken a picture. Yesterday I thought I was back on the horse and was going to start doing what I love again... But this depression is really fucking with me... Please pray for me, I seem to be losing at this whole thing called life.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
The More Days Go By, How First and Foremost I Am Your Friend, and What Helps Me Keep Going
So my thoughts today have been singular in identity, but don't lack intensity. I have been thinking about you and how no matter what has happened we have been best friends. It always comforts me when I think of this because I never had a friend to who I was able to tell anything. It means everything to me and I love you. I know that it is hard to figure things out sometimes but I will be there one day at a time. I love showing you slowly that I care.
I know that not many people look at my photos and that probably no one else reads this blog... But knowing you are makes it all worth it. When I check for updates I look for yours first. When I see a comment, a favorite, a message, an email, or a voicemail my pulse races and my heart sings. Your voice alone brightens my day. And all this goes to say... thank you... for making my days better since I met you.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Blank Page Syndrome, and Social Change
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Laughing at Misfortune
Monday, May 17, 2010
What Feeling Sick Does
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Updates - Where I Am At 5-16-2010
- I am a techie, as Daf pointed out last night, I love gadgets
- In that vein, I now have an RSS feed to this blog on my Flickr profile.
- I also have a call widget that is anonymous. It is over on the right of this page under the "about me section." It will allow you to leave me a voicemail comment, it is kind of an experiment.
- I am gearing up for finals week, and I do look forward to summer
- I love Daf with all my heart
- I know html (random but hey, I am hand htmling this haha)
- Photography is my new passion, but I still love guitar
- I am hoping to play at an open mic night soon
- Life is beautiful, I am trying not to waist the amazing gift
Finals Week, Why Do We Stress?
Yeah, today I am relaxed, but I know in the next week the thoughts above will be in my brain, an almost never ending stream. I know this because these thoughts are what always run through my head when finals week approaches, but now I am wondering something new.
Does all this emphasis on the future warrant stress, loss of sleep, and a general unease? The question I have is what if something life changing happens in that week, or (god forbid) I die. Would I want my last week on Earth to be worrying about a multiple choice test, an in class essay, a letter grade? What real significance do these things have, does an A equate happiness? I don't know... It does leave one with feeling a sense of accomplishment, and I do believe people should work hard. But the stress, that wracks the entire student body during this week, maybe if we thought differently it would be less horrifying.
Carpe Diem. All we can do is seize each day, because tomorrow is not a guarantee. Instead of stressing, see the tests as what they are, and do your best, but don't waist a moment of the day worrying about a day you may never see. Life is beautiful, and as one young rebel said "Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Thoughts of Who We Are, Why Do We Hurt Others, and Paul Hardcastle's Ninteen
This video tells of the treatment of American soldiers during the Vietnam war, although it was never officially declared by congress... What were we fighting over? Communism? Then why are we so close to China? No matter the reason, the people involved were kids, 19 years old, younger than me, yet they fought, killed, wounded, were wounded, destroyed, and were destroyed. Why? Because their government owned their lives, as it technically still does. I watch this video, and I don't understand humanity. Not because of the images here, but the numbers, how many people died. Its horrifying. How could the politicians send these kids on over to die? Because they ceased to be humans and became numbers... They were x-amount of troops, with x-amount of acceptable casualties.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Understanding
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Lion or Zebra
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Dry Spell, Current Thoughts, and Why Nature Sucks
- Finish school for this semester
- Get the pre-reqs I need for Carnegie Mellon
- Take a picture EVERYday
- Write a blog everyday, possibly combine the two
- show Daf that I love her (this is my favorite to do :D)
- Discover myself
